Discovering My Self
For over 22 years I worked in the financial industry and enjoyed, by most measures, a wonderful career. I was also a single, working mother of two children, and I defined myself as such.
You might expect those roles to be totally fulfilling, but I often felt boring. I dreaded questionnaires that asked you to check the boxes for your hobbies or other interests. I didn’t have any boxes to check because there never seemed to be enough time for anything else in my life.
So, when I lost my corporate job nearly two years ago, I lost a huge part of my identity. By the grace of God, it wasn’t long before I was able to embrace the enormous change as a blessing.
Off the Hamster Wheel
For many years, I had only enough time and energy to do the bare necessities: laundry, cooking, cleaning, helping my kids with their homework, and so on. But now that I was off that proverbial hamster wheel, I finally had the opportunity to slow down, loosen up, and begin the process of digging inward.
I had no idea how I was going to earn money but I adopted a new motto to live by, one that is still my favorite: “Let your faith be bigger than your fear.”
To that end, I started the practice of discovering my present self. I specifically choose the word “practice” because its definition – “repeated performance for the purpose of acquiring skill or proficiency” – allows for the reality of constant opportunities for improvement. Practice never makes perfect but we absolutely can start the process of changing the way we approach this blessing called life
The Taffy Machine
The first step was to turn off what I call “the taffy machine.” I remember seeing taffy being made at the candy store – the endless twirl of the machine that twisted the taffy back and forth and around again. That is how our minds work. Instead of focusing on the present moment, WHICH IS ALL THAT WE TRULY EVER HAVE IN THIS LIFE, I keep going over and over past events or thinking about things to come.
I desperately wanted to quiet my mind and connect again to that perfect spirit within me. To make the changes I was seeking, I needed to tap into the limitless knowledge available to me every second – knowledge that spans all of eternity, both past and present, to guide me going forward.
Focusing on The Present
So I started focusing into the present moment, becoming aware when the taffy machine started up and doing my very best to turn it off and center myself in the here and now. Coming to center even a few times during each day can bring about tremendous peace and abundant blessings.
Eckhart Tolle teaches us to become the observer of our own ego and how it tries to manipulate every moment with thoughts, distractions, and a whole bunch of negative self-talk. I started “sh”ing my negative thoughts, quieting my mind and breathing, breathing, breathing.
I knew I couldn’t go back to the limited facets of my old life and I became increasingly excited about the possibilities before me.
Walk with me as we practice the blessing of Discovering The Present You and we will co-create DELICIOUS, RADIENT, JOYFUL, ABUNDANT, FREE and EASY lives!!
The Masters Teach Us …
The masters teach us that by simply focusing in on the present moment, in on feeling good – everything that we desire will manifest in our lives. I have been witness to just that so many times over the past year.
On Mindfulness and Sailing